posted at 8:06 AM
Friday, June 03, 2005
][The Truth Of Life][
Trust,
Betrayal,
Love,
Hate,
Sadness,
Happiness
All of the above are different in terms of meanings,
They are practically worlds and worlds apart.
However,
How many have thought?
That before betrayal,
There must be trust?
That before hate,
There must be love?
That before sadness,
There must be happiness?
Though the meanings are worlds apart,
But to change from one feel to another,
It is just crossing a thin margin,
Even thinner than a string
The start of something is the beginning of the end of it,
The start of life is the beginning of death,
The start of an attachment is the beginning of separation,
The start of happiness is the beginning of sadness
However,
The beginning of death is the start of a new life
The beginning of separation is the start of a new attachment
The beginning of sadness is the start of happiness
Thy brought two different point of views,
Which is negative or positive is up to you to decide..
][4/6/2005][
Heyyyyyyy~! Da jia hao~ long time no write le wor.. hao bah.. wo lai update yi xia.. yeppx.. wah seh, me now si bei tired! Whole body damn suan! Last night nothing to do so I went to exercise at the fitness station.. quite xiong la.. den found out a lot of ppl work out there too! =).. learnt some new ways of exercising wid the uncles..den went home tt time around 8 or 9? But I saw ppl playing badminton.. all aso v pro de, den v tempted, den go join them! Wahahs! So fun norh! This is wad I call got kick! Damn pro lor they all, den play with them can learn new ways of playing and aso increases my strokes, “anger management”=).. den suddenly saw one compassvale secondary the person, know him de la.. den he and his peng you all come play with us.. den I play till whole shirt drenched and I really mean wet.. den suddenly saw my sorta archrival.. though he one year younger than me but he is super and I really mean superb with his badminton skills.. I tink you all would know him de la, he acted in “I’m not stupid” as the EM1 kid.. ai seh, I remember I last played with him around 2 years ago.. that time we had a draw, all of us won a set each.. den saw how he played ytd, I admit his skills have soared far above mine le.. he one week play 8 days one lor! =D.. ahahs.. his skills is considered godly for a teen.. den saw how he play I picked up some new skills, really helpful! =).. I picked up his service, his aggressive play.. den after a short while the lights off le! Den we all play.. den I challenged him la.. just stroke stroke.. den found out that skills and play we still not really far apart, but he is definitely better than me la.. tt’s y my archrival wad! Ahahs.. play with him is got kick! Cause he, how to say, play like me la.. yeah.. many mani smashes all aso v hard de.. den I and him compete until quite xiong la.. ahahs.. den I fell!! ahahs.. kena scratch.. den all say go home, den I talked on the phone with my biao mei den went to slp! Den this morning go badminton training again! =D.. den found out at first v difficult to play because all the joints v locked.. den stretch stretch a while den better liao.. played with the coach 3 sets, onli got 1 point.. but I managed to play out his weakness! Wahahas! Sucker! =P.. ahahs.. den I developed my archrival’s service, pro kia nia.. ahahs.. v useful, I won Derek 15-10 with a breeze.. den I anyhow played with teck soon I was leading 13-9, den I say let him win liao, cause v tired.. den ended 15-13.. ahahs he won la of course! Den v xiong, today cannot do situp cause ytd I did 3 sets of 20 le.. den I tink Monday or wad I tink I doing inverted bahx.. yeahh! Must try out.. the uncle teach moi! Ahahs.. =D.. den I weighed myself at the weighing machine today.. to my surprise I lost…!!!!! 9 Kg!! yay!! Ahahahs.. I am clearly under acceptable weight now.. ahahs.. happy siah! =) den now just reach home, all the pain is coming back to me.. ahahs.. den ask the coach to restring for me.. fuck siah, he wanna restring tension 26 for me.. my frame maybe cannot take it lei!! God bless my racket!! >.
posted at 11:57 PM
Friday, May 27, 2005
][War][
Marching on the fields
Ten years of preparation
One battle
One war
One shot
Many of us are in this war together
To fight
For attainment
The horns sound
Dark clouds cluster
Many departures
Many promises
Many sorrows
Many tears shed
Many sacrifices
Just for this time
Swords gleam
Armors ready
Shields brought forth
The final test is coming
Victory or failure
There will still be bloodshed
To soar or to sink
There is a price to pay
The choice lies in the remaining time
To fight or to flight
Heys!!! Long time no see! Ahahs.. at last, my crash course came to a full stop! All the memories flooded back to me lor.. from last year, all the feelings of entering the classroom for the first time, till now! So much to feel, so much to say, but it’s an end now too.. ahahs.. he lao shi!! Thks for your letter wor.. I really really feel you are the best teacher to me, cox you brought me to my world of Chinese, you changed my point of view (which is really damn tough if you try) ahahs.. yeppx.. den I really treat you as my mum likkdat, someone really I could turn to when I need someone out there.. but our fate ends here.. I miss bugis! I miss jiang tuition centre!! I miss the uncle who sell tissue (=x!) ahahs.. hmmm.. looks like I won’t be going there any time soon.. =’).. but I promise he lao shi! I will strive for an A1! I won’t give in so easily.. ahahs.. it’s not easy but I will give my best shot! This is for what I promise, I am no procrastinator! Hmmm, I suddenly felt as though I am released from the ropes I am bound by.. but I dun wan these ropes to let go.. cox I really enjoyed my tuition so well.. but in the Jedi code and rules=> You must learn to detach as attachment breeds jealousy and power breeds greed.. I shall learn how to let go of everything easily.. As jealousy leads to pain which leads to hatred and then anger.. ahahs.. I just received a new game!! JEDI ACADEMY!! YAY! Ahahas.. I gonna bang it after my O Chinese.. =).. it shall b a trophy! =).. ahahs.. I today have many many emotions running deep inside me man.. words can’t explain how I am feeling.. but I can say this.. WATCH out world! Cox this battle is going to belong to me! I worked so hard for this, I am not going to just quit here.. I’m going to kick ass!! =D.. ahahs.. k la.. wan le.. u ppl takkaire ya?? Nxt Monday I’ll type more!! Wan an le.. =).. love u peeps.. takkairex.. sweet dreams!
To war I shall march, and to conquer is my quest
Lin2
posted at 8:34 AM
Saturday, May 14, 2005
][Departure][
Those times are fading,
I began to realize
What you mean by a dream…
Dream is defined as a subconscious state
Where your mind imagines and dreams what you think about a lot,
It is greatly affected by what you keep thinking about,
How you feel about something or think…
Everything now seems so real,
No more like a dream like before…
But those days were just dreams,
That turned a moment to reality…
In this cold, heartless world
Such dreams are already good enough for me…
For I am destined to be alone,
In the Boulevard of Broken Dreams…
What’s the worst thing I can say?
Since things are better then I shall say:
So long and good night,
So long and good bye…
Those nights brought me tears again,
But the soul you torn is sewn back…
Courage, strength are coming back to me,
It’s just a matter of time I’m really back on my feet again…
How I wish everything is just a dream,
For loneliness is the next worst thing to death,
But trust you to pull off such a move,
So long and good night,
So long and good bye…
Long way ahead,
Little time to waste,
So everything is better if I said,
So long and good night
So long and good bye…
][14/05/05][
3 months ago, I know I was in a dream, a particular dream known as the past.
I just realized it.
That was the longest dream I ever had.
It lasted for 4 months and a few more days.
3 months ago,
I had someone in my arms.
Now I’m alone.
I remembered 13th 3 months ago.
I spent so much blood, sweat, forsake my wellbeing.
Just to make the 14th special.
This time,
Everything has changed so much,
In a short period of time.
I remembered I spilled glitter all over my table just to do something for you.
I remembered I braved a storm to just get something for you.
I remembered I was ready to forsake anything.
Just to make that day special for you.
I remembered everything was worth,
When I saw your smile
And you said a “thank you”.
Now I’m still smiling,
But you are here no more.
It’s like Tidus and Yuna.
A dream has an end
And it ended for me late.
5th of May,
My Rebirth.
You were right,
That was the day of my departure.
The day I dropped everything
The day the strings were really cut loose.
The day I really let go,
The day I really departed from you…
posted at 6:11 AM
Friday, May 13, 2005
][Fade Away][
Those colours
That once painted the skies
The night
Those countless stars
That once gave my life colours are fading away…
Words are only words
The emotions running through me
Is indescribable
Beyond comprehension
Beyond any I have felt before…
I could only laugh how I was in the past
For I was holding onto something so tightly
But those colours on those photos
Those feelings
Those messages
Are fading away into the timeless end of space…
For the fifth was my Rebirth,
May was the month,
I did something I thought I would never do…
Thirteen is my code
Hallowed be thy’s name,
Destiny is my calling,
Fate is in my grasp…
][Helluva][
Heys~ ahahs… hao jiu mei lai blog le wor~ hope ni men hai hao bahxx~ hannor.. ahahs.. ytd was my cousin’s wedding wor.. budden v boring.. ahahas.. onli did 4 things, eat, eat, eat and eat.. ahahas.. nowadays damn freaking stressed out la.. ahahs.. got several outbreaks.. caused by stress bah? Hannor.. ahahas.. hmmmm.. heck la.. complexion not important now.. I’ve got the drive to really pia studies neix~ ahahas.. hannor.. but cant wait for the week to end.. hao lei.. nid to rest rest.. ahahas.. motor must warm up liao.. ahahahs.. hmmm.. but I need to get fit soon man.. ahahas.. planning to do cardiovascular exercises 3 times a week to lessen some bulk before toning.. ahahas.. yoga does help too man.. =D.. hannor.. haiz.. physics paper a little tough for me neix… shit la.. ahahas.. hannor.. but e math is considered quite chicken siah~ ahahahs.. yep.. ytd I did practice in gan’s class.. kns siah.. damn zai norh.. rgs paper is crazy.. ahahas.. ya.. I wanna go work out neix.. but scared too tired for the nxt day papers.. nvm la.. ahahhs hannor =D.. hmmm~ nic lee tio jackpot siah~ chicken pox neix! Ahahas.. song boh~! =D.. hmmm.. 15 days MC.. song siah.. ahahahs.. hmm k la.. no mood to type le~ update sooon!! Ahahahs.. takkaire neix~
Friday da 13th!!
HEYS!! Ahahahahaas.. exams are totally OVER.. for now.. ahahahs..=).. today went out wid jacquelin and rena.. hannors.. actually all of us wanna go beach.. but the sun like v small today neix.. from white turn black nia..=D.. ahahs.. so we all decided to stay in the shades and air con… =)… ahahas.. so good wors.. we all went to plaza first.. go bang neoprint.. ehhx.. zijie keep ka chiau.. ahahahs.. buay tahan.. den we all hang around for a while, den saw yun jie and Alvin.. hannors.. eh eh~~~ =D.. wee uu weet.. ahahahs..=X.. den we hang out at plaza.. they go walk walk den I play piano first.. practice.. ahahs.. den later went arcade with Jankin, nic lee, zi jie, luther.. WOOT.. DRUM MANIAAAAAAAAAA ROCKKKKSSS.. so damn f*king fun man! Ahahahs.. intro u all try man.. damn shuang de norhxx.. ahahahs.. we all rock lor.. but like v ban men nong fu.. a lot of ppl there damn pro kia de norh.. but we all beginners nia.. I last week just touch for the first time in my life.. ahahahs.. damn fun norhx.. den today zijie and luther first time try.. hannors.. damn fun norhx!!! Ahahahas.. at least I saved luther.. hannors.. first round nia.. just pia.. ya.. ahahs.. damn fun la.. tried standard mode.. har lor.. damn chio.. ahahs.. okaaay.. den left, sorry neix jac and rena meix.. make u all wait so long worx.. hannors.. sorry! Ya.. den later hang out at harbourfront norh.. damn sian.. walk walk walk wlak.. ya norhx.. ahahs.. den went back plaza.. quite fun narh.. go comic connection.. DEATH NOTE VII come out faster lei.. I wait until damn xin ji le lei.. hannors.. I’m addicted too.. oh no.. ahahs.. I’m aso addicted to studying.. ya man.. ahahs.. =).. damn shuang norhx.. feel so good.. mid yr turned out better than expected.. I’m satisfied with my work attitude and my preparation work.. ahahs.. but I will strive for better.. 2 weeks to my Os paper.. ahahs.. Tsuki damn f*ker, cannot anyhow play ppl likkdat one lor.. luckily he book 5 onwards no more Kira.. if not I gonna kick his arse.. =X.. ahahs.. agitated over a book.. hannors..=).. the burden of mid yr is off my shoulders.. currently, mentally, physically tired… but… very happy and very contented… this was the freedom I was searching for for so long now.. =).. but today is freaky.. god.. ahahs.. I can.. sorta feel… ya… Friday the thirteen.. my number.. =).. ahahs.. I love it.. ahahas.. today aint a suay day at all man.. everything is goinggg ma way.. =).. waiting for my results now.. ahahs.. anticipation.. =).. ahahahs.. yeah~.. kaex pplx.. ROCK ON!!! Try out drum mania X, Death note… hear songs: Rob Thomas- Lonely no more, Gwen Stefani- Hollaback girl, My Chemical Romance- Helena, My Chemical Romance is a nice band, I lyke their gothic style in Helena.. the singer looks damn stylo there.. yeppx.. =).. ahahas.. kkiex.. chill ppl.. catch a break and hab a kit kat.. =) ciao~~
posted at 6:13 AM
Saturday, April 30, 2005
][Imperfect][
Styll hurt
Beyond comprehensyon
Why am i styll feelyng lyke thys?
All when i really really can't let go?
Those words styll remain etched yn my mynd
Those messages styll lay yn my phone
Untouched
But re-read many thousand tymes
Styll wonderyng what honestly struck me
I can't bryng myself
To treat lyke nothyng happened
Cox it was not a dream to me
Those words you gave me
Those letters
Those smyles
Remayn so deeply yn me
I do wonder sumtymes
How you're goyng on wid lyfe
Could ya cope
But when those words rang back
Those dreadful words
On the 26th
Keep repeatyng themselves
Hence I held myself back
I keep a distance
Not sure of what to do
Styll caryng for you
Though I am so hard on you on the outsyde
Just pray for you to be alryght
Doyng well,
And stay strong
And sorry for everythyng
I am the ymperfect one
I was the cause of everythyng
But I guess lyfe does really move on
All i can say is thank you for everythyng
Those tymes together
Those days
Those memories
Yeppx,
always wid me..
Sorry for everythyng
hmmmx~ hihix.. read sumone's blog.. realized i'm really jux too harsh bahxx.. but i'm sorry, i jux can't face u yet.. yeppx.. jux gimme time.. perhaps nxt time would b frens norhx.. ya.. i dunno how u feel bahxx.. since we are 2 different souls.. but imagine how i feel when i keep passing ur house everytime i go for my tuition.. how i restrict myself from going to 2nd lvl.. it's lyke a second death zone.. yea.. i cant explain how i feel bahx.. probably you would tink differently.. i really dunno.. i only noe i'm being too hard on you.. taking my hurt feelings out here and it sounds damn harsh la.. but tt's really how hard i'm trying to get over u.. hmmm.. ya.. jux sorry to that someone norhxx.. very sorry.. yeppx.. okaay.. and to the other sumone, sorry but i am not ready to get into relationships yet.. yeppx.. sorry.. back to blog..
ytd jankin, jillian and me go chiong chiong after tuition.. in jankin went ps first.. we ate dinner, den i had duck rice!! =) ahahs.. v nice worx.. hannors.. hmmm~~ den i and jankin went arcade again.. ahahs.. play the drum thing.. omni mode damn siao man! damn bian tai.. v v v tuff.. i was lyke.. err.. er.. as the beats pass pass pass.. ahahs.. stupid me.. =D.. hannors.. hmmmxx.. den i pei jillian and jankin go far east buy bag.. hannors.. =D.. ahahs.. v long day bahxx.. hannors.. den i bought the comic Death Note 3!! YAY! so nice to read norhx!! ahahas.. =).. Kira damn cool.. yeppx.. ahahs.. den we reach far east, the starhugs shop bahxx.. den jillian and jankin go choose bag bag.. den the little ger v v cute and chio norhxx.. hao ke aii!.. ahahs.. she reminds me of my biao mei.. hannors.. exact replica.. only this ger ger smaller version and younger.. ahahs.. v farnie.. she kip suaning jillian.. den jillian say, "slap u ar!" den the ger say, "how can so rude?" ahahas..XD!! ahahas..den i suan jillian, actualli praising her norh! i say, "wah, jillian.. ur legs so short how cum can walk so fast!?!" ahahas..=X.. kena scolded for tt =D.. ahahs.. okaaay.. den the church ppl approach me and jankin.. pass me and him a brochure.. hannors.. k la.. later still got tuition.. perhaps update later! takkairex..
posted at 4:13 PM